a director's thought..

i'm currently suffering from bipolar disorder. my life is a big mess. my room is even in a bigger mess than ever; not that it has always been neat. but it was way tidier than now. i've lost my ability to do homework. turning into an insomniac. even a nap during lunch time seems impossible. lost my ability to socialise; i lock myself in my room every night trying to cope with my academic but always ends in vain. lost the ability to laugh at jokes. suddenly feels that 'the nanny' can never makes me laugh anymore. going to blow up any time soon. hoping that my fellow housemates would lend a hand with all of the work now that Bangsawan is just around the corner. utter anxious with my AS result which should be released in 2 days time. classes are no longer enjoyable since i have lots of things lingering in my head. looking forward to this friday; the date when the finalised script is to be handed in. i'm grateful that i have some good friends and juniors who are willing to sacrifice their precious time with those Bangsawan work. i hope that things will be better after the meeting with Pn Halijah at 5pm today because i don't want to lose my temper any time soon. Garnetors, please wake up!! all of you are old enough to think for yourself. don't be tooooo self-centred. if you have test, we have TESTS. if you're having exam this semester, this is OUR LAST SEMESTER and WE ONLY HAVE ONE SHOT AT IT. hear me, and hear me now. or you'll here my LOUDEST voice which i haven't had for the past 3 years. Let's do our best now so that we can savour our good time later. i expect nothing less from all of you!