.:この先の心持ち|my feelings from now onwards:.

yesterday, today and tomorrow..

2009-10-01T08:00:00.002+08:00

semalam,

kawan aku beli webcam headset baru..

die sibuk nk try gaban..

ym la, skype la..

tp streamyx seperti biase mcm kura-kura kaki 3..

hari ni,

aku rase cuak..

aku rase sedih..

aku rase gembira..

segala macam perasaan bercampur baur..

so, x taula nk ckp sebnrnye rase ape..

esok,

hanya Allah swt sahaja yang tau..

selagi ajal belum berkunjung tiba..

insya Allah, aku akan menjejakkan kaki di bumi London.

p/s: currently mmg terase mcm xde perasaan..

p/s/s: flight 11.40pm malam ni~

raya!

2009-09-22T15:37:00.002+08:00

sangat tak bersemangat~

2 strangers, 2 macam perangai

2009-09-17T23:30:00.003+08:00

selasa, 15/9/09

it was a busy day!woke up as early as 9am(awal ke?) bergegas ke post office..sending receipts for visa and medical check up, mestilah claim kan!dekat 1 hibu habes..kemudian petang tu,bajet af nk break fast dgn teman2 di subang parade..on the way to ktm, singgah clinic amek results blood test.

alhamdulillah, everything is negative. then, Mak Long, singgah petrol kiosk. she went out to the counter. aku kt dalam kereta memerhatikan keadaan sekeliling.

1st stranger

ade 2 org mamat nih..sorang berjaket kulit hitam di atas motor, the other one in red. die tgh isi minyak ke dalam botol kosong. nk dijadikan cerite, tertumpah minyak ke atas tangannye. so, si merah tu pantas ke pili air berdekatan. i thought to myself:

"eh..xde sabun kt situ, mane bleh hilang petrol kt tgn tuh"

..aku tersenyum (senyuman ikhlas ok!) melihat gelagat si merah. tiba-tiba matanye menangkap pandangan aku yg masih tersenyum.

"kerek sial ko!

ko pandang-pandang ape?

senyum ape?!!"

haruslah aku terus buat2 x sedar die tgh ckp ngan aku kan. so, aku pon bajet2 membelek handphone di tangan. perangai mcm tu pon ade ke?

setibenye die subang parade..dapat sms dari syafiq yazid..he couldn't make it..so, tinggalla kami berempat; syazzy, eman dan azri(bersama-sama brownies nye!). after breaking fast at kenny roger's, dan berase tersangat-sangat hyper sebab pnb dah bagi allowance, kami ke surau utk menunaikan solat maghrib. ramai sgt org!

2nd stranger

i had to Q-up utk berwudhu'..and then ade this one pak cik kat depan. mase tgh pandang die ttbe die toleh blkg. so, aku mengukirkan senyuman sambil tu dlm kepale otak ni,

"alamak, matilah kene pelempang..(teringat case kat petrol kiosk)"

"tadi tu jarak sebatu(ok,exaggeration terlebih) ni face-to-face!"

pakcik tu membalas senyuman..

and so it's 八月..BTN

2009-09-13T11:54:00.003+08:00

hachigatsu, august..

i've tried writing 2 posts yesterday, but in the end i lost my interest somewhere in the middle..PHAILED!

so, my august dimulakan dgn BTN..sgt malas!1st mindset, kne basuh habis2an..so, i literally, dragged myself to kem bina negara, meru..not very far from my home. the atmosphere was just horrible. our KF was this lady who i couldn't remember her name. she's nice. i could tell. but the other jurulatih sangat lah annoyingly x best!so, basically, the 1st 2 days were just plain agony with the so-called "pembentangan kertas kerja"..uurh, mule2 smgtlah nk salin..but in the end, there were more "artistic lines" rather than notes. LMAO. pandang kiri, pandang kanan, almost all sedang khusyu' berzikir. the only thing i remember is "BULLSHIT!!". i think that was from the 2nd speaker who successfully made us stay wide awake for the whole 3 hour-talk. owh before that, we were suppose to elecc the committee, and guess what? ramailah budak kyuem yg dilantik:

penghulu: Kamal 10.5

pengulunita/penghuluwati/mak penghulu: Nazu

penolong mak penghulu: Nanthini

Food exco: me and vellu (haha!)

Hall exco: Mai

Emcees: Atiqah, Nadiah Amirah.

cemerlang bukan? hehe.. so 2 hari pertama diakhiri dengan test yg byk soalan mencuit hati!serious x tipu.. and by the time 30 mins, the hall was almost empty! my dorm plak, sume bdk2 PNB and a few of others frm sri cempaka and also other places. nuff said, penyiksaan pon berakhir. things got better on the 3rd day. we were divided into groups. mine was "Prajurit Tanah Air" which was also the title of our theme song which was to be presented mase malam terakhir. the Members, me, cha'er, ZB and khairul fahmy(midi look-alike, doing IB in london) yana kisas, mai, belle, faizah rani (aka pa'e kwn midi, bakal guru bahase perancis), jenessy (alamak, xreti eja, sabahan, also going to france), aime(economics in japan) and miao shan(ktj, robinson college, cambridge, law). fasci plak adalah abg s*** yg sgt best. umur die 23 thn. now doing 2nd degree in nuclear science..1st was engineering..gap umur x jauh sgt, so die sgt memahami. awal2 je die dh ckp, x perlu takut, saye akan bagi semua lulus. and those group activities yg kne buat, ktorg x buat pon!hahah..die byk bercerita la..psl zionis, wars, ISA mcm2 la lagi..sgt best!kesian la plak kt groups lain yg kne buat presentations and blah3..too bad!=p and the group activites kt hall were quite OK. i think all of us had fun. owh and the night yg kne perform our theme songs, we got 2nd!haha..x practice, sume spontaneous acts from cha'er, ZB and fahmy!but i guess it was good kot. we got the spirit!LOL and that night jugakla we could see miao shan's true colors; she's really perky!mlm terakhir so she was quite enthusiastic! but all in all, BTN was horrible and a lil bit of fun. but still, up till now, why menara bangsa???why??!!nasib baek la that's not our national anthem!ROFL.

ok..now, i need to continue with kuih raya baking..nnt sambung lah lagi..kalau rajin..hek3

woooahh! i skipped 2 months~

2009-09-04T07:26:00.003+08:00

yay!i'm making an update..

it has been really busy these 2 months..and i really mean it..BUSINESS!

somewhere in july, i was invited to kys for the orchestra..2 minggu kat sane..best!

i made some really memorable encounters..

reminisced back the good old times with form 4's and 5's..(these were my form 1's and 2's back in 2006)

tapi seriously, mase datang..i feel really old!and those kiddos yg dlu comel2, skrg dah handsome2 and lawa2..omg!i am old!

and that some new encounters with form 3's, 2's and 1's..i felt like the good old 'Abg Za'ba'..

but obviously la, i wasn't the only kyser there..

of course there's kak leen, who officially got appointed as a part-time teacher during my stay there..she was the headgirl of 2004..and also the concert master of that year..

razeen, org melake..CM 2006..also jadi part-timer gak..

and then ninzy, principle cellist 2006..helping out ms lillian!

there was zaf, principle trumpeter 2007..also the headgirl of that year..

and last but not least, bagok "my adik ipar", principle trumpeter 2008..

boleh expect la kan..every day lepak music studio je..

1st day je semangat bgn awal pergi breakfast kt dining hall!haha..

masuk 2nd day pkl 9 pon blom tentu bgn..ye ar kan..kyser!

so klu pagi2 tu, confirm la kan pergi cafe ngan kak leen and ms lillian..

owh btw, ms lillian is our strings teacher..majoring in cello i think!owh and she speaks japanese!

her husband was my japanese language teacher..haha..

then mesti balik studio before break time..coz the juniors will come and practise!

like REALLY practise!terkejut gak ar mase mule2 datang..we never really practised for orchestra other than the night classes and rehearsals!

it's all thanks to the new music teacher, ms adrin, MYPO double bassist!mmg ar strict gler..

my 1st practice with her was the night right after i arrived there..scores lagu baru pun baru dapat..mmg garang ar..x tipu..1st time the stage was pin-dropped silence!impressive!

haha tp in the end she let loose gak..bagi chocolates to all of us a few times..

owh and one i like about the studio is we gossiped!hot topic; shim!*bukan name sebenar

the ever hated person in the music dept. students ke, teachers ke..sume benci..mane xnye..

waktu class x mengajar, bleh plak maen game! ini bukan buat cite..mmg kami kysers observed!

bleh kate every hour ade je cerite yg dibukak especially by the juniors la..jess, ah khau, khye, sara ruz, nael, mona, kc..owh and nael is the pres of music club..kesian gler tgk die..kne tahan dgn shim!and use kysers, mmg annoyed with him..last minute work la, he even asked us to teach the juniors during day classes!and he'll be on his comp doing who knows what!and i dont know what happen to late mr chiew's (previous woodwind and brass teacher) notes, warm ups and books!

and its a good thing ms lillian passed down late mr chiew's books to me. aah tibe emo..enough of shim!

so the studio brought back memories of me, mase form 5 with those kids and kak leen..we laughed, we shed tears.we practised for ABRSM(really?) haha.. more like, aah tension nye scales!x hafal2 lagi~..jom borak~!rofl..padan la grade 5 dpt 107 je!but seriously, those were the good old days..and practices awal2 mmg tensed..and i can really feel the fear from the juniors..there was no joy in the songs played..datang practice mmg for the sake of datang practice.. mmg x best.. sgt x enjoy..being the shrewd kysers as we are(cheh..) ktorg buat la a heart-to-heart gathering with the orchestra members..sharing is caring kan?=p but alhamdulillah, after that everything improved by tenfolds!even more~and being in the orchestra felt like it was still 2004~2006..macm kat terengganu, perlis, penang, johor, perak..

and that time la i feel like sharing my experience with the other trumpeters; chu-kk, kelent and poppy..hopefully they'll pass down the things that i've taught them to the juniors..duh!shim x ajar kot~and i;m proud to hear from kak leen yang chu-kk ajar the form 1s and 2s trumpet the other day..*tears*

ok the night of performance, mmg best!seriously, everyone was soooooo energetic!especially when playing prik kit nu and rong dung dung-songs arranged by late mr chiew..though shim was the one who conducted..and ms adrin's blue ridge saga, dance of a sugar plum fairy and universal band collection were superb!mmg enjoy gler..owh and encore rasa sayang (also by late mr chiew) pon mantap. i cant compare it with 2006. not because it was too good or anything. it just felt different. the vibes were different! and it just felt right. you can actually feel the soul of each member in the songs!after the VVIPS left..(tan sri couldn't make it!*sob) the audience requested for 2 more songs!haha guess what?!rong dung dung and prik kit nu!mmg all out habis la..they requested for another one.. but ktorg semue dah pancit..haha..but all in all, memang best!sangat best..and i'm pretty sure the audience enjoyed as much as we did!

so..that was the rest of july for me~nnt updates for august plak =p

lesson for today..

2009-06-27T20:01:00.005+08:00

i watched 2 seasons of anime in 3 days..
little did i know that the ending will be super sad..
5 dear friends get separated for their own dreams..
after 5 years of being together...

"Everyone is the same as they were before, but they are also different from before..
I've changed too.. That time is really over.."

and now i'm back to being mellow..sedeyh!!!!

the lesson: jgn tgk cepat sgt..sampai episode akhir menangis x berlagu..

Ai-suru Mars-Reiko chan!!=p

2009-06-26T20:50:00.006+08:00

ね..ね..皆さん!!

ne..ne..minna-san!!
hey everyone!!

此処は見て!
kokowa mite!
look here!

北川景子は本当に奇麗な~
Kitagawa Keiko wa hontou ni kirei na~
Kitagawa Keiko is really beautiful right~

迚も可愛いだね~~
totemo kawaii da ne~
SO THE VERY CUTE kan~~(hehe..)

マースれいこちゃん, 私はあ貴女の一番のファン!
MARS-Reiko-chan, watashi wa anata no ichiban no FAN!
MARS-Reiko-chan, i'm your number one FAN!!

mane kamu midi??

2009-06-23T22:59:00.002+08:00

ttbe, buat post tros..
fyi, aku x jumpe lagi kawan aku nih di alam maya...
yang lain sume dah~
bile hang nk on??
rinduuuuuu~~

and...dah berjaye download satu album dafi~
currently, obsessed with seumur hidup~~*

dafi seumur hidup

cubaan pertama!

2009-06-22T22:54:00.003+08:00

still trying to get rid of this mellowness~
so, i went on web hopping for some hot mp3s..
and i found this!

Ular Berbisa - Hello

btw, sesape yg singgah, tolong lah comment~
especially p20!
aku meroyan sesorg nih~~~~

graduated and sad..

2009-06-20T16:00:00.004+08:00

i miss my friends already!
aku sayang korang semua!!!!!!

gonna take awhile till i recover from this mellowness..

of Kau Aku bila terasa rindu

2009-06-19T22:18:00.004+08:00

"Aku menyesal."
"Aku pun."

itu majlis wida' malam tadi. tak guna nak menyesal. menahan sebak di dada. air mata diikat erat. senyuman dan tawa mengaburi kusammnya kesedihan hati. biarlah senyuman ini menjadi imejan terakhir buat teman daripada tangisan. aku optimis. degan izin Allah, kita akan berjumpa lagi.

sekiranya anda tertanya-tanya apa erti tajuk post ini, ia adalah gabungan tajuk lagu dendangan aizat dan dafi. memang kena dengan theme post ini. Kau Aku, Bila Terasa Rindu. penuh makna.

i left end-of-sem dinner early. balik, mandi, solat. i'm never good at saying goodbyes. and this was the 1st(and of course the last) sem dinner i attended as an audience. no performers fright anymore. just friends and food. memang malam ni agak suram sikit. ye lah. all of us will be graduating tomorrow. and that's it. only Allah knows when we shall meet again. i'm too mellow right now. mahu menangis, tapi hati menghalang. target aku. senyuman untuk teman-teman di saat-saat akhir ini. sabar. kurang 15 jam je lagi.

"mengejar mimpi, yang pasti akan aku merasakan kehilanganmu"
"walau di mana kita berdiri, di dalam dunia ini, biar sampai akhirnya nanti."

-Kau Aku-

"beginikah rasa, seksa perpisahan, sunnguh anehnya, hidup berasingan"
"tetapi ini sebahagian dari pengorbanan, bekalan; andainya hari sukar mencabar"

-Bila Terasa Rindu-

kepada:
shouk, hizbul, herman, iman, midi, syazwan, syafiq yazid, naQ, p.chek, sulwan, luttphi, syera mat, fara ain, nabihah, j-lo, farid, azri, furqan, suman.

ini bukan perpisahan! ini adalah permulaan baru yang indah. ingat, kita semua mengejar mimpi. make sure we strive till the end!all the best!i'm going to miss all of you!no doubt about that.

till we meet again. times and places that we'll never expect.

urh..uhh..aahh..

2009-06-15T01:46:00.002+08:00

the list:
play RO till my nose bleeds!
watch anime like there's no tomorrow.
download anime like it's gonna be free only till today!

anime list to watch:
all time favourite tsubasa chronicles! i want season 3 la CLAMP! damn it..
xxxHOLiC- the season i missed

and the non-anime list:
ghost whisperer season 4!yippeee!!!
Tru's calling..
and lotsa movies pending!!!!!

bahana habis exam!=p

kerna siput (babi)..

2009-06-06T02:47:00.003+08:00

kenapa saya tidak 'mengupdate' blog selepas p3??
bak kata midi, "aku dah masukkan memori itttuuu ke dalam kristal dan dicampak jauh2 lalu berderai 100000000000000000 keping" - ayat ini telah diubah suai mengikut citarasa penulis.

anyway, today..well yesterday since it's already sunday, i sat for my 2nd last paper!!
wooohoooooo!!~ 1 more to go..after all the hard work with chem p4 and s2 last wednesday-macam paper further plak, 3 jam kt dlm exam hall petang2, i totally had lost my momentum to study @ reviewing my work. mane tak nye, both papers started in the afternoon session; 2-3.45pm and 4-5.15pm. not that i'm underestimating paper 5, penat lah!!! so i did very lil of reading with the new syllabus paper 5. tahun 2008 nye paper semakin merapu. so tidak terkejutlah kalau-kalau this paper akan meraban tahap maksima! nuff said, the morning before the paper, i refused to wake up early, just in time to go for lunch. i'm not going to do anymore reading.

lepas solat jumaat, waktunya tiba. cuak. masuk2 confident dengan langkah kanan bersama-sama selawat ke atas nabi. duduk. paper diberi-waiting for datuk B's cue.

"you may start now! you have 1 hour and 15 minutes."

cliche.

1st question:
an apparatus with cut shoot in a testube filled with dye.
owh..nk carik xylem.
crapped bout making microscope slide and all.
the 2nd part was about why not use intact shoot??
-suberin layer terpacul dari otak. damn!!!i forgot the term!!
selawat dibaca beberapa kali, alhamdulillah- voila! Casparian strip.
i didn't revise AS btw. bersyukur masih ingat.
3rd part was about how you'd use the apparatus to measure water movement rate up the shoot.
at first i was thinking of measuring the time take for the top-most leaf to change colour. too qualitative i guess. i wanted to make a potometer out of it but not sure whether or not you're allowed to modify that. so, some random spark of inspiration came to me! measure the height of the solution!tulis punye tulis, shit!asal tetibe buat essay plak nih. taulah 6 markah! dang! so i added in bracketed numbers before each sentence. next part was how to measure the rate. no problem i guess. the last part-respiratory inhibitor added into dye. lower uptake kot.

question 2:
siput (babi)!!!
bace lah cerita mak nenek yang diberikan. panjang. lebih setengah page. i kept repeating myself trying to make sense of what i was reading. pensel sedang galak menggaris dan membulatkan kata-kata kunci!dah pening lalat. results dah diberikan. 1st question, independent and dependent variables. alhamdulillah. 2nd part, explain the results! sentap! bermain-main mata dengan soalan selama 5 minit. menjeling-menjeling..mata kita sama memandang. motif lagu datuk siti ngan SM salim berkumandang?? failed! ended up in vain. lompat ke soalan seterusnya. recapturing method! atau masa spm dulu: tangkap, tanda, lepas dan tangkap semula. 2 investigations were given. akibat kebingungan soalan ini, shouk menjadi heeeemo dan mencipta teknik baru; tangkap, tanda, lepas dan BUNUH SEMUA! explain why the 1st investigation is more likely to be reliable than the 2nd on..harus aku terbang ala-ala mila terjun dari awan ke awan terus ke soalan seterusnya..

question 3:
continuons culture of R. gutilinis. wasn't in awe or anything because last semester was about electrophoresis, also an application topic. 1st part ok, 2nd part pon boleh merapu lagi. 3rd part macam pelik. not sure whether its a trick question or not. jadi aku pon bantailah- we cannot determine whether or not the difference between those 2 samples is siginificant because no staistical test has been made. pastu, pasal degree of freedom. alhamdulillah. next part nih lagi pelik. calculated t value was given. tapi table of critical values mane??!!motif kau bagi aku bende tuh sebatang kara. given information was purposely ignored-bajet diva. error in printing kot. soalan terakhir dijawab dengan helaan nafas lega!oopppss..not too fast..soalan siput babi masih membutuhkan perhatian.

after half an hour thinking of suitable as i would call it "crapping-mechanism-for-deperarate-marks", the clock showed 3.45pm. 15 more minutes. checked a few times. then..termenung memanjang memikirkan nasib paper nih. check pon bukannye tau btol ke salah. tensi! meraban je lebih. ku pandang sekeliling, sume khusyuk menjawab. *dead meat* asal sume nampak macam confident terlebih je mase jawab. habis exam semasa melangkah kluar GH, sume orang dok bising-bising paper mcm hanjjjgggghhh. what a relief. memang rapuan siput (babi) btol jawapan-jawapan aku tadi. nuff! tawakkal ajo! ibab tupis!!!!!!!!!*hati ku terus menjerit kerana meroyan*

and it's 1.30am

2009-05-27T01:27:00.002+08:00

looking at my watch, it's 1.30am
date: 27th may 2009

oh no!!!!!
biology paper 4 this friday!
maths p3 this friday!

alhamdulillah..done with the text book..
but, so0oooo many work to be reviewed!
p3 down the drain!
need to start reviewing later !

Ya Allah, kurnikanlah kekuatan kepada hamba-Mu ini! Amiin..

p/s:
read something in one of my fellow bloggers:
wajarlah dia emo..
back a year++ ago, i was in the same situation!
i know how it felt!

favourite song atm!

2009-05-20T23:56:00.002+08:00

Masih Jelas
by Hafiz AF7

Beralih, musim ke musim
Hati tetap serupa
Tiada yang berubah
Dari hari, dikau pergi
Dikau pergi

Penjara, hidup ini penjara
Tanpa ada simpati
Kepada sang Kekasih
Yang dilanda, yang dilanda
Kehilangan

Chorus:
Masih jelas
Setiap garisan halus
Bila senyuman kau ukirkan untukku
Masih jelas
Setiap lekuk penjuru
Menghiasi wajahmu
Waktu kau renung aku

Ratib sendu..
Ratib sendu
Bergetar dalam kalbu
Hingga menitis linang
Dari kelopak mata
Keranaku, keranamu
Dipisahkan

Chorus

Chorus

Sudah suratan takdir begini
Segalanya sementara
Selagi hayatku masih ada
Kau bertakhta di hatiku

Beralih, musim ke musim
Hati tetap serupa
Tiada yang berubah
Dari hari, dikau pergi
Dikau pergi
Dikau pergi....

fyi, i didn't copy and paste this!i wrote this as i sing!!gembiranya dah hafal!!wakaka..
kalau lah bio+chem boleh dihafal sebegini senang~~

relieved and refreshed..

2009-05-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

i'm free!well, not literally. but it's good to know that i've done the right thing. hafiz who sang AZ's song- kau bunga cintaku kinda reminds me of this other song of AZ. coincidentally, it fits my situation right now~

Teman Terulung
by Anuar Zain

Bila bertaut senyuman
Mata berlirikan
Memancarkan keluhuran
Cerah kesederhanaanmu
Seindah kejujuranmu

Detik seia sejiwa
Terungkap setia
Tiada upaya sepi
Mekar kudup penantianku
Hadirnya teman sejati

Melangkah kita menjejak mimpi
Bahagia berdiri dengan mu disisi
Harapan kita meniti hari
Sentiasa seiring

Paling agung teman terulung
Tenunan emas sayap hidupku
Tak inginku undur bertamu
Bertakhta teguh
Ke akhir waktu.

very insightful. you know who you are..

hafiz!!!!!!!w0000t!!

2009-05-17T00:19:00.005+08:00

mila!!!! =p

you rock!

congratulations!!!

ignorance is bliss..

2009-05-14T20:32:00.003+08:00

that is, if you don't know about it..
if you do know about it and try so hard to ignore..
hell, it's a b*tch!

but i'm doing the right thing for now..
keep ignoring and avoiding..

p/s: i'm having like hell lotsa butterflies in my bellies..waiting for sunday to come..and this 1 year++ of waiting will end..

finalists..AF fans only!

2009-05-09T23:15:00.002+08:00

as expected!!!hafiz!!!!woooohhooooooO!!!ftw!!!!
mantap gler ar!!!!!you really can fly!!!!

akim, isma, yazid and ARIL!!!!!
sigh..malas lah nk emo2..yg penting hafiz mmg mantap!!!
riuh satu dewan~~mcm confirm je edry hashim tulis lagu final utk die..wakaka!

as of just now:
oopss..it's the final week..
won't be able to see afundi terkini~

and now, evryone..afundi hafiz!
i'll start this week..so klu, sms x reply..phm2 je la~XD

what's waiting..

2009-05-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum semua,
Apa khabar & hope everyone sihat coz' dah nak exam kan.....so, GOOD LUCK!
Below are the pre-departure programmes schedule:
1. OBS at Lumut Perak = 1 to 25 of July
2. Biro Tata Negara at Meru, Klang = 10 to 14 August
3. Pengukuhan Rohani at Port Dickson = 17 to 19 August
4. With Tan Sri = 21 August (tentative)

Please be informed that attendance is COMPULSORY..... and details of the trip will be informed at later date
GOOD LUCK and take care.

Regards,
Rukiah A Samad
Education Development Department
Performance Assessment & Integrated Education Division
Permodalan Nasional Berhad

comment: huhuhu..habis a level serupe mcm x abis je~but!!!bleh gi MOC!!!=)

kakak cafe..

2009-05-07T17:03:00.002+08:00

aku: nk coklat satu..(jari dituding ke arah dutch lady chocolate)

kakak cafe: (dutch lady cofee diberi)

aku: (bayar duit)

kakak cafe: (cash-in dalam mesin)

aku: air coklat kak..

kakak cafe: bukan td mintak kopi ke??!!(nada marah)

aku: ..(amik air dan belah)

di meja yg ade hizbul, ken, jojo, wai shan, audrey, letha.

motif akak tuh ttbe emo ngan aku??
@^(*())_*$!(&$!(_!!!!!!!!

yg lain: (senyap terkesima)..

kesimpulan: hanjeng btol kak cafe tuh! PMS xyah ar lepaskan kt customer. noktah.

classes coming to the end...

2009-05-06T22:46:00.001+08:00

maths-this friday is the last class.
bio-next monday.
chemistry-not sure yet..

this marks the starting of Cambridge International Exam!
my paper starts 29th May 2009.
pray for me~
amiin..

warning: AF fans only!

2009-05-02T23:02:00.003+08:00

i'm pretty pissed off with the fact that they actually allow AFMASUK this year! again!!

re-cap:
AF3-marsha got back in
AF4-lotter got back in.

and now, they want aril back!a big NO! it'll only be fair if only claudia and aishah are the ones to be voted in since they were the last to leave. imagine this, someone left like weeks ago; skip the 9th week-obviously the result will be after the 9th concert, and straight to final!not fair. not fair at all! pity the voters. i'm not one of them =). but my mom is!!!

*sigh sigh sigh*

whatever it is, i loooooove this week's concert!

hafiz rocks!! you guys should really watch him perform!

as of just now:
hafiz-66%
akim-31%
yazid-4%
isma-2%

yay!but it's sad that now no more aishah and claudia..yang 2 kat bawah tu bile la nk kluar(harapan~)..

of ladybugs and pests~~

2009-04-29T23:01:00.002+08:00

today..

KPM universities list on the board!

most of them were pretty unsatisfied with their sponsor's decisions.

today..

i signed up for MOC!

but there's a high chance that i won't be joining because of PNB.

today..

i took my yearbook photo picture!

though yesterday i decided to stick with the pic taken when i first entered college.

today..

ms aizan gave us mock for p3!

if it wasn't for the ladybirds and pests, DE may be easier.

today..

i didn't do anything productive!

it's all because of p3.

today..

13 more days to 1st day of CIE!

how time flies.

today..

i updated my blog!

the title is "of ladybugs and pests~~"

finally!!!an update~

2009-04-23T23:25:00.003+08:00

*bersawang*
"update laa."
"nantilah, takde mase free.."

the truth: every time i tried logging in at college, it failed. bloody connection!at home, i barely remember to update.

and finally..i'm updating..wasn't planning on to write anything till i suddenly had the urge to view my blog. checked my fellow bloggers' updates and 1 grabbed my attention. hizbul's.

after months of trying to choose between imperial and UCL, i've decided to choose both.

Firm:
Imperial College London
Biochemistry (BSc)
3 years
AAB-Biology, Chemistry and Maths

Insurance:
University College London
Biochemical Engineering (MEng)
3/4 years
ABB-any order

now, it's accommodation hunting time. of course, not literally. i just need to fill in some forms.
at first i wanted to have a single room, en-suite bathroom and self-catered, but when i found out that PNB's policy of 80-20 is no longer available, i really need to come up with plan B.

after replying to UCAS last thursday, i'm now patiently waiting for any letter/email from imperial regarding my accommodation application. the deadline is 31st of july!

Once you have accepted an academic offer from Imperial College London you will receive an email or letter with instructions of our online application procedure from May 2009 onwards.

UCL forms are here ages ago, i'm almost done filling'em up. need to get my latest passport photos and choose my residence.

will be updating more later~

phew!

2009-03-23T21:50:00.003+08:00

last night was a bit topsy-turby when suddenly ali and p.chek noted out that we have chemistry homework! we decided not to do it. a bit reluctant so, i tucked into bed early to forget about it.

so class started as usual:

block 2
chemistry! we decided not to remind mr hanson of the homework. so, he went on teaching xray crystallography and MRI. pretty interesting but i was sleepy the whole class. managed to answer the question sheet he gave us during class. alhamdulillah. he did not mention anything about the homework. he did remind us to bring our calculators for the rest of he week as we'll be doing maths..something to do with some coefficients and stuff. what did i tell you? i was sleepy the whole class!! XD

block 4
biology! mr vroege gave us mock paper 5 for this wednesday. bio paper 5 is really hard to score! then, we continued with biotech and finished it. he went through our homework for the week and i'm looking forward to start our 2nd last chapter of the syllabus tomorrow! crop plants!

block 3
mr hanson gave us more booklet after during block 2. so i ended up in the RC doing as much as i could while syafiq yazid reading bio and fara ain over the clouds with her IELTS results. haha.

block 6
maths! we did some questions on type I and type II errors and bloody hell i didn't get the answers! ms aizan set a few questions for discussion tomorrow.

block 5 and 1
went really unproductive! had a really really long nap. so much for starting p3 revision! and i realize something. panasnye lembah beringin!!!!

after maghrib i went back to the chalet trying to do the s2 questions set by ms aizan. alhamdulillah i got'em. stupid careless mistakes! no wonder i didn't get the answers in class. did my biology homework as well. now planning to do some p3 revision but ended up writing this. *sigh* and i still have a few things to clarify my with my s2 stuff. someone please help me!!

transformasi menjadi basi..

2009-03-22T01:38:00.002+08:00

warning: to AF fans only!

wake up people..it's obvious that some of the participants need to be kicked out of the ACADEMY!!
tak layak!macam bagus plak tuh..bajet..poyo..vocal bukannye mantop pon!pity adila..she shouldn't be the one to leave..si A and Q tuh ah..memang tak patut masuk in the first place..wakaka..emo terlebih plak..kinda sleepy right now..buku bio dah di jengah..papers chemistry dah di'conteng'..past years s2 dah di'jamah'..p3 je lagi blom sentuh..huhu..anyway, might i say this; AF7 has the best participants so far..

my rank:
hafiz-mantop!
claudia-bayangan stacy
aisyah-bayangan mila
akim-vocal yang unik, practice menari lagi ye~

fever..

2009-03-22T01:24:00.002+08:00

college is resuming..
mock exam is coming up shortly..
AF7 is on..
hafiz rocks!
claudia rocks!
aisyah rocks!
akim rocks!

my bio, chem and maths not rocking! XD

*dead meat*

contradiciton, irony..??

2009-03-13T01:37:00.002+08:00

"sediakan payung sebelum hujan"

"dengar guruh di langit, air di tempayan dicurahkan"

think about it..

if this was 5 months ago, my FRIEND..

2009-02-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tonight, I look through your window,
It’s orange, just the way I like it,
But it’s yours, not mine,
I saw my reflection,
It’s mine, in yours.

Then I thought to myself,
What has been happening all this while?
Our time is running out,
And how you wished things can be like they used to,
Not sure whether that’s still your wish,
But maybe now it’s mine.

I’m a coward,
I can’t face you,
Not anymore,
After all the things you thought of me,
You seem to be OK with this silence,
So I’ll keep my tongue tied.

If only I could turn back time,
If only I knew how you valued me,
Or maybe you used to or have been,
It doesn’t make any difference,
I should have known better,
You’re a novice when it comes to expressing yourself.

Just one wish,
Just one hope,
Before time slips and leaves us apart,
You’ll make the right choice,
And I’ll make the right decision.

P/s: I regret for not giving you the second chance that you longed for.

and just for the record..

2009-02-24T01:54:00.002+08:00

if you see someone who supposedly your ex-best friend or friend or whatever having fun with someone else like you used to with him/her, would you be jealous??and by the definition of 'jealous'- he spotted you 'spying', your facial expression changed, you avoided the eye-to-eye contact and you left as fast as you could. just a random thought really~

rambling like always

2009-02-24T01:19:00.004+08:00

it has been a while since i last updated this blog. a lot has happened for the past few weeks and if it wasn't for the bloody wireless connection in college, i might be able to write something. anyway, i'm really looking forward to going back home for the weekend. although a short one, it's nothing that i would have missed. so, now i'm back as a normal student. no more "unacademic" things to worry. glad that whole busy student life is over. nothing new except the fact that currently i'm totally obsessed with Puteri Gunung Ledang the musical. Love the songs, love the dance and love everything about it. i even spent my entire time on the bus listening to the songs- journey to Kuala Gandah, the elephant conservation trip thing for senior biologists last saturday, the day after i went to watch PGL at Istana Budaya. I had a lot to say for the past few weeks especially the post bangsawan "drama", the new house committee "drama" but time didn't permit me. so, literally wrote it out in my mind rather than spilling them up here. owh and not forgetting my overly depression over IELTS results. i could have done better if I were so into it during the exam. hut, i wasn't. so, it's my bad. and recently i've been keeping in touch with someone that i hadn't really spoken to for like two years???but that made up my day really. good to listen to her laughs, and we laughed alot back then. things were really great over these few weeks. shouldn't put too much hope on a better life in the near future. mock exam is on it's way and so far, "proudly" i'd say that i've only started my revision with S2. time is running short. gotta get my lazy bump moving. but i see some positive changes in me-i'd spend my free blocks in the RC doing homework and catching up with my studies. a good sign that insyaAllah, i'll meet the requirements for my Universities' offers which comes to another dilemma! UCL or Imperial??haven't really decided on that. the good thing is, Pn Kas will be talking bout it with us soon. and my obsession with the nanny, gossip girl and other stuff is realling freakin' me out!why can't i have an obsession with my A2 books for a change??! clock is ticking and i just completed gossip girl season 1 in 3 days. nothing to be proud of!but it's good that i've completed my homework prior to watching it. it's like a self-rewarding thing which actually drives me to do something beneficial. well, lots of random stuff and sooo inorganised. that's me. loving my life now! but things should get rough soon! savour the good times now. "kill" myself later LOL. till then~

p/s: i might give some updates on the past activities when i'm at home- that is, if i still remember =)

to manusia bodoh and sesiape lah yg ttbe x puas hati ngan aku

2009-02-08T18:10:00.001+08:00

aku x phm..sape yg gaduh??sape yg x puas hati?
ke ade org yg bwk mulut??bawak fitnah x tentu hala??

exricated!

2009-02-08T18:05:00.000+08:00

i'm free!

the truth..

2009-01-30T11:49:00.002+08:00

after getting my AS results, i made my own expectation of the components' results. however, things turned out to be really unexpected!!

Biology
Expected: AAB
Actual: BAA

comment: i'm really surprised!!B for paper 1???!!and A for paper 3??!!never in my life i got A for it~

Chemistry
Expected: AAB
Actual: ABA

comment: the paper 3 was the same day with Cambridge interview and i really screwed it up because get a valid results for the experiments. paper 2, a lot of careless mistakes and i didn't include the silly mistakes that i've made..

Mathematics
Expected: AA
Actual: AA

comment: alhamdulillah. but if they have 3 papers, i might screw the other one up..hehe..you'll see what i mean.

Physics
Expected: ACA
Actual: ABA

comment: i underestimated myself too much LOL

Overall comment: the results are unexpected but alhamdulillah..i don't have to re-sit any of them..i wonder if i'll do a chi-squared test on this...

alhamdulillah~

2009-01-21T18:14:00.002+08:00

my hard work paid off..all the praise to Allah s.w.t. Congratulations also to KYUEMians batch 10 and 10.5!!some of us might not get the results that we want. but, it's not the end of the world. your failure might be a stepping stone to a success. to those who succeed, this might be a stepping stone to a greater success in the future. syukur!~

a director's thought..

2009-01-19T01:14:00.005+08:00

i'm currently suffering from bipolar disorder. my life is a big mess. my room is even in a bigger mess than ever; not that it has always been neat. but it was way tidier than now. i've lost my ability to do homework. turning into an insomniac. even a nap during lunch time seems impossible. lost my ability to socialise; i lock myself in my room every night trying to cope with my academic but always ends in vain. lost the ability to laugh at jokes. suddenly feels that 'the nanny' can never makes me laugh anymore. going to blow up any time soon. hoping that my fellow housemates would lend a hand with all of the work now that Bangsawan is just around the corner. utter anxious with my AS result which should be released in 2 days time. classes are no longer enjoyable since i have lots of things lingering in my head. looking forward to this friday; the date when the finalised script is to be handed in. i'm grateful that i have some good friends and juniors who are willing to sacrifice their precious time with those Bangsawan work. i hope that things will be better after the meeting with Pn Halijah at 5pm today because i don't want to lose my temper any time soon. Garnetors, please wake up!! all of you are old enough to think for yourself. don't be tooooo self-centred. if you have test, we have TESTS. if you're having exam this semester, this is OUR LAST SEMESTER and WE ONLY HAVE ONE SHOT AT IT. hear me, and hear me now. or you'll here my LOUDEST voice which i haven't had for the past 3 years. Let's do our best now so that we can savour our good time later. i expect nothing less from all of you!

at last..

2009-01-18T18:03:00.005+08:00

remember the interview with dr suzanne farid and also the email that i received from UCL a few weeks ago???if you don't, then click here for the interview and here for the email.

at last, they have decided to update my UCAS track yesterday!now, i have a reminder saying that:

and i don't have to wait anymore~

the overall results:

date: 24th October 2008
University of Warwick(W20)
Biochemistry(C700)
BBB which includes Biology and Chemistry

date: 29th October 2008
University College London(U80)
Biochemistry(C700)
AAB - Biology, Chemistry and Maths respectively
Pass Physics at AS Level
IELTS 7.0 with minimum of 6.5 in each component

date: 5th December 2008
Imperial College London(I50)
Biochemistry(C700)
AAB - Biology, Chemistry and Maths respectively

date: 6th January 2009
University of Cambridge(C05)
Natural Sciences(BCF0)
Unsuccessful

date: 16th January 2009
University College London(U80)
Biochemical Engineering(H811)
ABB - subjects not specified
Pass in Physics at AS Level

so, there are 4 conditional offers and 1 rejection~=)

hiatus!!

2009-01-12T23:43:00.002+08:00

bangsawan, test and homework!!blog: on hold!~

kawan-kawan yg menjadikan P20 sebagai ruang persinggahan: tolong lah senyap sket!!~jgn la absent-minded sgt..org nk study...!!

tensi!!!!!!

goodbye cambridge!!~ hello Imperial and UCL!!

2009-01-07T19:41:00.003+08:00

it's not the end of the world!~ everything happens for a reason. one door closes, another one opens! now to find the right door~ =S

finally the decision has been made. a little sad but kind of relieved because i don't have to wait for it anymore. praise to Allah since i still have the other 4 offers. but now, i'm in a dilemma. UCL or imperial?? i know it's still to early to decide. but, before you know it, the time will come. this semester will be way hectic and time will fly!!it's either now, while it's still abit loose and free or the last minute when i need to prepare for trials, A2 and other important stuff! maybe i have a solid reason to not think about it now. the result for my UCL biochemical engineering is yet to be announced officially in UCAS. AAA? AAB? ABB? BBB? owh well, i know the minimum will be BBB. just hope for the best insya Allah! now that, everything is over, not officially, time to grab those As and meet all the requirements!!~ がんばって!!~

i have to do what i have to do..

2009-01-05T14:33:00.002+08:00

*sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh*
*sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh*

i'm going back to college.
really soon.
should be right about now.
the dreaded moment has finally come.
going to see mr vroege, mr hanson, ms aizan and ms castaldo again~
going to see my friends again!!!! =)
well, it might not be that bad after all~

*yay!**yay!**yay!**yay!**yay!**yay!**yay!*
*yay!**yay!**yay!**yay!**yay!**yay!**yay!*

baffled

2009-01-04T16:42:00.007+08:00

it's really weird, when the end credits start to roll, the whole theatre breaks into laughter. especially it's a horror movie. they go,
"what the hell??"
"omg..i just spent 10 bucks just to confuse myself!"
"glad thats over, i thought my add maths is sooo much easier to understand."
"LMAO..i don't understand a thing!"

guess what??that happened to me. DARK FLOORS!!

personal comment: this movie has a lot of good horror elements. but the script is a bit weak. and they do need to explain to the audience what the hell is going on. everyone felt as if they were bamboozled after the movie. huh!

my theory: Sarah is an autistic girl who possesses psychic ability to foresee the future with her drawing. but i have no idea what does the "red crayon" represent. tobias on the other hand is dead but his soul is trapped in his own body. and this evil spirit which looks like Dark Lord in Ragnarok online traps 6 innocence in a time loop, in the hospital where everyone is dead except these chosen 6. and every floor in the hospital is a different time dimension which is parallel to each other. so basically the dark lord messes up with sarah, tobias, ben-sarah's dad, emily-a nurse(i think), ric, walter and jon. eventually everyone dies in the end leaving sarah with her so-called fate. but each time sarah confronts the dark lord face to face, the whole event starts again. it's like deja vu!and only sarah and tobias know this.

dr walter is dead!

sarah feels something!

so i searched in the net for some explanation and i found a good one:

I've heard some folks say that Dark Floors is confusing almost to the point of madness and that the only thing they can figure out is that they are running from the Lordi crew. So I'm here to explain whats going on.

Everyone in the movie is dead. They can't help it but they are dead. The little girl, Sarah, and the hobo dude know this. They say she may be epileptic or have some mental disorder well she does. She has been driven insane by the knowledge that she and everyone she interacts with is already dead and can do nothing about it. So insane in fact that she appears autistic to the others. The MRI machine blowing up is the first signal that they are dead because when one of those things goes it releases tons of electric energy and would kill anyone in the vicinity. The second is the hobo walking up to her in the hall and saying something which later we learn is "Sarah, I'm not cold anymore" indication that the hobo gets to move on or something like that. The link that hobbo joe and sarah seem to share is there because they are both dead and know it. hobo joe has probly been through this a million times and knows whats gonna happen just as well as she does. The only difference being that this time he gets to go on finally.

My first theory is that in the Lordi universe the Lordi crew has decided for their own amusement they will trap 6 innocent souls in a pocket hell that repeats itself.

My second theory is that Sarah may not be dead but either asleep or in a coma. Ever had a dream where you did something but later the dream started over with minute detail changes? The crayon being red the first time then blue the second supports this theory.

Now at the end of the movie you see Sarah confronting Mr. Lordi himself and she says "I would like to go home now". This will support the pocket hell theory because clearly in her light filled form she is completely sane and reasonable. But Mr. Lordi apparently has other ideas like torturing her psyche for all time or something.

All in all I would say that everyone is dead and with the exception of hobo joe and sarah do not know it and are therefore damned or tormented by the Lordi crew into an endless repeating hellish illusion until they realize and accept whats going on.

i got it from here~

pretty cool. my theory is quite close. only that i didn't know that MRI can do such damage!

stop nailin' it..

2009-01-02T18:54:00.005+08:00

NAIL IN THE FENCE

There once was a little boy who had a bad
temper.

His Father gave him a bag of nails
and told him that every time he lost his temper,
he must hammer a nail into the back
of the fence.

The first day the boy had
driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next
few weeks, as he learned to control his
anger, the number of nails hammered daily
gradually dwindled down. He discovered
it was easier to hold his temper than to
drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't
lose his temper at all.
He told his father about it
and the father suggested that
the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he
was able to hold
his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally
able to tell his father that all the nails
were gone.
The father took his son
by the hand
and led him to the fence
He said,

'You have done well, my son,
but look at the holes in the fence.
The fence will never be the same.

When you say things in anger,
they leave a scar just like this one.

You can't put a knife in a man and draw it out
without leaving a wound in his body.

It won't matter how many times you say 'I'm sorry',
the wound is still there.
A verbal
wound is as bad as a physical one.

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed.

They make you smile
and encourage you to succeed.
They lend an ear,
they share words of praise
and they always want to open their hearts to us.'

YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I AM HONORED!
Please forgive me if I have ever left a hole.

crush!!!!`~

2009-01-02T02:08:00.002+08:00

wizards of waverly place's Selena Gomez!!she's sweet and gorgeous!!w0ot!!haha..hyper terlebih~~owh yea..she's a 1992..

this is so true..

2009-01-02T01:02:00.003+08:00

"Relationship is like a thigh; you start off smooth, then a little lumpy. But, without them, you don't have leg to stand on."

-Sylvia Fine, The Nanny-

deaf by the barber~

2009-01-01T23:52:00.004+08:00

i had a haircut just now. my barber was an indian guy. he was actually talking to me or "trying to have a decent conversation" with me.

"rambut ok x?"
"i can't see. need my specs"
"ok"

he continued while iput back my specs on the desk in front.

"umur brape?"

buzz..buzzz..buzz..-the hair shaver buzzes in my ears

"erk..(i couldn't hear a thing except the buzzing)..mm..rabun jauh??"

i was just putting my specs off. so, i assumed it was:

"rabun ape??"

lol..
and he repeated the question so i said 19, and he sed he arrived frm india same age as me. now 23. like i care??and he went on and on about i dunno what. kept nodding but couldnt hear a thing. deaf by the barber lol!!

and i have a question??do americans eat cili padi??beacause the nasi goreng USA i had just now had lots of them!!ROFL

witty nanny~

2009-01-01T00:31:00.004+08:00

CC: ooo.. how does she do it to him all the time??
Niles: it's a female thing, you'll never understand..

-Cecilia(CC) Babcock and Niles-

Maxwell: Niles, get this trash out of here..
(handing him the 'Gloss" magazine)
Niles: you heard the man!move it!!(staring at CC)

-Maxwell Sheffield and Niles-

"Like my cousin Toddy always says; if you want to be dead, be drop dead!"

-Fran Fine-

akemashite omedetou gozaimasu!!

2008-12-31T18:49:00.001+08:00

明けましておめでとうございます!!

a series of events

2008-12-31T02:15:00.003+08:00

in batu feringghi, penang. not going to upload any photo. i'm just too lazy now to transfer those pictures into my laptop.

a series of unfortunate events:
- the hotel sucks big time. i mean. i'll give 2.5 out of 5 stars. maintenance is really bad. the ceiling in the bathrooms are really low. hurt my arms many times. too bad it's peak season and that was the best hotel we could get.
- i had a blonde moment. was trying to save the clothes from falling off the balcony. didn't see the closed sliding glass door. and guess what?? bang!!! my head collided with the glass waking everyone up from their naps. broke into crazy laughters~the kak ila put a big NO ENTRY sign on the glass door with a big X mark on it. with her lipstick. ROFL
- got stung by something while having fun on the beach. not sure what. but got itched and inflammation. reminding me of the chapter immunity. haha. kak lin, a soon-to-be doctor said it could not have been a jellyfish sting because it wasn't that severe. got tiger balm on it and made in waterproof. and had some more fun. so you sea creatures think that a sting would make me lose all the fun at the beach??no wayy!

i was supposed to write the fortunate ones too but m too lazy to do it anyway..there are lots of them~

congratz!!

2008-12-30T15:58:00.004+08:00

to all kysmians batch 0610!!
congratulations!!

100% str8 As again!!
2nd time in a row!!!

proud of you ppl!!

Forever Friend

2008-12-30T00:01:00.005+08:00

we cannot measure friendship.. (true..)
in dollars, time or weight.. (duh!!)
we cannot see it coming.. (yes..that's what we call 'fate' at work)
that part is left to fate.. (see!i told you so~)

but once we know the blessing.. (please define blessing..LOL..now i sound like Ms Audrey Lim)
that comes with one good friend.. (ok, i didn't see that coming..seriously!!)
we know the joy and gladness.. (and sorrow to top off with agony..yeah2 i know, i'm being negative)
of friendship without end.. (i'm glad that comes to an end!haha)

there's no particular reasons why i wrote this, because i didn't write it. i just copied it from somewhere else. the bracketed ones are my sarcastic comments with no intention to make fun of anyone. just to spice things up a little. but i have a question. the person who actually wrote this must have some kind of sentimental value behind this and really meant what he wrote. how about those who actually use it to dedicate it to someone else?? all i know is you wouldn't know what you got till it's gone.. haha.. that's my essay title! anyway, i'm open to comments. i know there's a particular person would really love to answer and clarify things up. =)

p/s: i was about to post this then suddenly anuar zain's teman terulung is on in my playlist! what are the odds??

another note to self..

2008-12-29T17:25:00.004+08:00

dear izzat,
i'm your conscience and also your sanity. it looks like i've finally found you. you seem to be very "busy" during the holidays so, it took some time to reach you. how could you forget about me??! now that i'm here, i shall hunt you for the rest of the holidays and worse, maybe for another week after the college re-opens. *sinister laugh*

if you work hard this whole week, then next week will be swell. well, apart from having your DE test and bangsawan practices start, you should be ok. i have high hopes on you. and by the way, the reason why you are really fidgety and anxious lately is because of me! a positive sign that you're coming back to your senses. i know the cambridge decision, AS results and bangsawan might be clashing with each other. just chill ok?

you've faced worse. i know because those were the time you needed me the most. *wink*

your long lost,
conscience and sanity

to everyone!~

2008-12-29T17:14:00.002+08:00

a quick note to self..

2008-12-27T06:53:00.002+08:00

dear izzat,

you've lost your conscience and sanity at KYUEM guard house when you signed out almost 5 weeks ago.

a reminder from,
yourself

to those who are celebrating..

2008-12-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

how i have been spending my holidays..

2008-12-24T12:16:00.003+08:00

i decided to miss my friends and write about this..XD

the first week: just finished AS, no way i'm going to start with something academic. chillin' at home. nothing better to do. downloaded songs, animes. owh yeah. managed to complete watching Akazukin Cha Cha(i know, it's an old kiddie's but i like it. made me laugh a lot with their punny jokes.)-74 episodeas and 3 OVAs and Kiba(51 epidodes), serious one, the 1st anime i've watched without any funny scene. kinda good for otakus, that love action packed animes. *thumbs up* i watched movies too. erm. if only i can remember what was it. haha. was it twilight? no, wasn't released yet. owh!!! madagascar 2!! with my cousins and bro. "moto moto..i'm so hot that you say my name twice" haha. love it!

the 2nd week: still hadn't done anything academic. continue downloading and watching animes. Inukami(26 episodes and a movie), light ecchi, PG needed haha. really funny. Ragnarok(26 episodes). i play the game and why not watch the anime?? haha. oooo..and my all-time favourite Tsubasa Chronicle, its OVA - Tsubasa Tokyo Revelation(3 episodes). finally, the whole series makes sense. haha. and xxxHOLiC season 1- 24 episodes and 1 movie. another CLAMP's production. Love it~not planning to watch the 2nd season just yet. owh. i went to mid-valley to meet azura and azeem. while waiting for them, i watched Wild Child - Nancy Drew's Emma Roberts is hillarious! you should watch it! and i think i watched Twilight too. sappy stuff haha. ok la kot.

the 3rd week & 4th week: did a little bit of reading; biology and chemistry since ilham has been enthusiastically texted me with lots of questions. feel a little bit intimidated. haha. nothing much happened. was busy with my cousin's wedding. did some reading for UCL interview. and the interview itself. no movies. no anime. *sigh*

haha. not really a productive holidays, rite? here's the list of academic stuff to be completed before the holidays end:
-Biology: read on Natural Selection & Evolution. and the worksheets. though, it's due 2 weeks after the holidays, still going to do it. hehe, after all, it's the first time mr vroege has ever given us homework during holidays.
-Chemistry: read the notes on Group IV given by mr hanson.
-Maths: revision on Differential Equations for the test right after the holidays. typical ms aizan. haha.
-IELTS: 1 essay on .. err.. i can't even remember the topic..need to check again. LOL. and reading practice. last time with ms rena, i didn't even bother to hand the work in on time, but i still do her work, not promptly.hehe. but now with ms castaldo, i have to or i wouldn't be able to take up my IELTS next month. she IS the head of english department after all.

can anyone tell me when will i start with all of these?? left with less than 2 weeks. i'm really worried about my AS results. huhu. and the cambridge's decision is driving me nuts! XD lets hope for the best!

michelle lim ai ling, congratz!!!~

2008-12-23T23:55:00.004+08:00

you're the bomb!!
i'm proud to be your chem classmate!

congratulations for making it to oxford!!

another offer this way comes~

2008-12-23T16:48:00.003+08:00

last night, i was really tired and sleepy. i checked my email and *poof*, i got this in my inbox. i couldn't believe my eyes so i asked syazwan through ym to read this. and he answered, "this means that they really want you!!" "yay me!!"
alhamdulillah..

they told me that the results will only be announced in a few weeks time. but it's barely a week since my interview. LOL

Dear Izzat,

Biochemical Engineering at UCL

We were impressed with your performance at interview where we felt you demonstrated you had the skill base and aptitude for biochemical engineering. The staff panel have agreed that you meet the criteria that we seek in a potential undergraduate. We are, therefore, making a recommendation to the Faculty Tutor that you be offered a place to study Biochemical Engineering at UCL. The actual details of the offer listing any conditions attached will be sent by the Engineering Faculty Office and you should receive that shortly.

I have enclosed some articles on biochemical engineering which I thought might be of interest.

May I wish you good luck with any future exams and I hope to welcome you to UCL in September.

Yours sincerely,
Suzanne Farid
Undergraduate Admissions Tutor

Hayley Powell
Undergraduate Admissions Secretary
Department of Biochemical Engineering
University College London
Torrington Place
London
WC1E 7JE
Tel: 0207 679 3003
Email: hayley.powell@ucl.ac.uk

reaching out: a friend~

2008-12-23T02:26:00.003+08:00

back then,
"you are my best friend"
"owh no, you got it all wrong.
you're just a friend; i barely want to know more about you!"

and yes, in my face indeed. *sob*

but now,
"my best friend, long long time ago"
"owh yeah??i thought i was just a friend.
and you barely want to know more about me!"
"i was immature back then.
can't you at least give me a second chance?"
"....."

and so, we took this path; a choice of nullified hesitance.
maybe still is. regret? yes. relieved? yes.

i've changed, you've changed, we've changed.
for better and worse.
the drama that everyone talked so much about.
glad it came to an end. sooner than we think it would.

nothing says best than our actions.
the present is truly the gift of today.
the past will stay as memories.
the future is a wish that will come true.

-a pleasant life to you, my friend-

interview with dr suzanne farid

2008-12-17T20:45:00.005+08:00

UCL Department of Biochemical Engineering: Bringing Discoveries to Life.

i was coughing like hell a few minutes before the phone rang. i do get this when nervous.
8.05pm, my mobile phone rang~i'm just going to list down the questions that were asked:

1. how did you know about biochemical engineering?and why?
a typical question really..but since this is a new field, you might get trapped with what you say.

2. i've read your personal statement and learnt that you are really fond of biochemistry. how does it differ to biochemical engineering?highlight the overlapping between these two fields.
so, i blabbed about how biochemistry is about knowing living things in-depth while biochemical engineering is an extension of biochemistry. we don't acquire new knowledge but we strengthen our understanding in the basic concepts brought forth by biochemistry. and she added up about drugs, bio-drugs, chemo therapy and lotsa things. i did learn alot.

3. can you tell me about the body that is funding you with your studies?are you going to be attached to them after graduating?how many years are they planning to sponsor you in UK?
bullshitting time!!and i mean it.i should be embarassed of myself.i don't even know where will i go after graduation.*shame*

and she continued enlightening me with life there, london, the fascilities and lots os things that we'll be doing as a student in her department. how we're going to conduct practicals in international pharmaceutical companies and much more. i can't wait!!the intervie ended approximately 8.36pm.

insyaAllah..everything will be fine~will be hearing from them in a few weeks time.*nervous*

the nanny vs homework!

2008-12-17T02:10:00.003+08:00

it is hilarious..i love it soooo much!!it makes me laugh my heart out~literally!!who wouldn't "give up" his/her time to do homework for a good show like this??i know i would!everyday-since the holiday starts, i'll stuck in front of tv from 12 am to 1am at hallmark, astro channel 702 to indulge my soul with this all time favourite show of mine~(i remember watching this back in primary, but that time, i didn't even understand what's all about..haha)

the nanny-ms fran fine

she's a jew from queens and ends up in manhattan with maxwell and family as their nanny. funny nasal voice. even funnier laugh. queen of logic really. she has a crush on maxwell. loves her witty comments that she puts up after she said something insanely ridiculous~

mr maxwell beverly sheffield

a broadway director and also a father of 3 children. he sometimes has the pda(public display of affection) towards the nanny. trusts niles, the butler so much. doesn't really trust fran with secrets.haha. really he's always the victim here. btw, he's an englishman.

niles- the butler

been with the sheffields for quite awhile. really love his sarcastic comments on ms cecilia babcock, maxwell's business partner. after everything, yes-EVERYTHING that she says!personally, i think he has the thing with her. work hand-in-hand with fran to tease CC(cecilia).

ms cecila(CC) babcock - the partner

she also has a crush on maxwell. been working with him for 10 years. sworn enemy with niles. they tease each other a lot. a rival to fran. but most of the time, she has to be the victim of fran's and niles's sarcasm. pity her sometimes.

so, why should i do homework?lol. i still have 2 weeks +. hope to start soon.

i love the show!!!

iq test~

2008-12-16T02:29:00.004+08:00

was really bored and eager to know my IQ so i did it lol~

Free-IQTest.net - What's your IQ?
136 is not that bad aite?XD
wanna know yours??click here~

p/s: i don't think this test is really that reliable~*sigh*

been taggged and i'm it!

2008-12-15T15:53:00.003+08:00

. 5 ciri wanita/lelaki idaman anda:
wahduh!mcm class islamic ust malike plak..haha
-si dia, who smiles always
-good personality(termasuk akhlak la nih)
-secretive and mysterious
-klu bleh nyanyi, a bonus!nk duet.haha(i know, i know forget about the past and move on..)
-caring loving and those things yang cliche

2. 5 wanita/lelaki yang tak pernah anda minati sepanjang hidup:

- erm..traitor
-backstabber
-liar
-*ssh*l*<----pardon my language XD -someone who ALWAYS takes me for granted
-and the list goes on~

3. 5 perasaan anda sekiranya keluar dgn org yg diminati:
haha..i like this..though it has been awhile.
-ドキドキ-dokidoki~berdebar-debar
-嬉しい-ureshii~happy
-そわそわ-sowasowa~fidgety a lil bit..
-and you don't expect me to tell evrything, do you?XD

4. 5 tempat istimewa yg ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda:-

-mall, definitley
-movies, yes!
-pangkor??haha..memories~
-xtau lagi dah~

5. 5 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang akan anda hadiahkan kepada Si Dia:

hmm..i'll list of things that i had given her~
-chocolates..alot..
-flowers..
-love-chewah!!
-earrings
-lotsa fun memories.ROFL

6. 5 Tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda:

- incomplete
- you're beautiful
- ku juga mencintai dirimu
-gosh, this is harder than expected..hehe

7. Rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat 5 perihal ini. WAJIB!!!Mereka perlu diberitahu akan hal ini:
-azri
-pali<<==dun think he'll do it -p.chek -3 cukup la~

gila-mila & lucky!

2008-12-14T20:45:00.000+08:00

Do you hear me?
I'm talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my and baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh

I LOVE LOVE LOVE REALLY LOVE THIS SONG!!!

makes me wanna fall in love again hahaah..as expected from jason mraz..bravo to him and colbie caillat~

by the way, i've been listening to 'gila' by mila since january this year. but, only recently it's a hit in the radio~SLOW la this people~

morning daze

2008-12-14T10:08:00.000+08:00

since everyone is soooo psyched up with their university offers, maybe i should join them too~

back then, before getting any offer, was really really reaaalllyyy frustrated and anxious..i had to undergo the cambridge interview without them, not even one. but most of the oxbridge applicants have recieved at least one offer. shouldn't really complain because the Universities that i applied for seem to take their own sweet time. (have to go with the list given by PNB rite?)

so the long torturing wait came to an end when i recieved and offer from University of Warwick to read Biochemistry on the day with cambridge TSA. it was 24th October 2008. i think i checked my UCAS Track at 3am. couldn't sleep because of the TSA thingie. Alhamdulillah. the offer is BBB. pretty good. should make a good insurance university. by the way, IELTS is not specified in the offer.

and 5 days after that, University College London generously offers me a place to read also, Biochemistry with the offer :
Grade A - Chemistry
and Grade A - Biology
and Grade B - Mathematics
An overall IELTS grade of 7.0 with minimum of 6.5 in each of the subtests

the morning before AS chemistry paper 1, Impecrial College London also offers me to read Biochemistry:
Grades AA in
Chemistry
Biology
Grade B - Mathematics
IELTS is also not specified here.
alhamdulillah again. and later after that i recieved an email from Madam Hayley Powell, the Undergraduate Admissions Secretary for UCL Department of Biochemical Engineering. there'll be an interview ; skype/phone- my choice. i chose phone since the internet connection here is pretty crappy. it's on the 17th December 2008 8pm(GMT+8). huhuhu. 2 more days. i need to prepare myself. what if the interview is similar to cambridge?gosh. hope not. i can so this. insyaALLAH~

がんばろ！
i'll do my best!

..of golden bunga telur

2008-12-13T18:53:00.000+08:00

so the morning started off before 6 am with my mom yellin', waking me up from my not-so-peaceful sleep. after subuh which was around 6.45 am, we depart for rumah nenek. the atmosphere was a bit damp and very inviting indeed, to fall back into a deep slumber that is. LOL.. as expected, it was still tooooo early as most of my relatives were not there yet.

the event started with recital of doa selamat by one of my cousins, abg mizi at approximately 8.30 am. then, we indulged ourselves with the food ("order aje" -nenek-) ; auntie rohayah's mee goreng, karipap, roti jala, cucur badak and kuih bakar. everybody seemed to be enjoying themselves, but not me. still half-awake hehehe..

after the buzzing and chattering, with the arrival of pak long and abg long(we call our 1st born cousin with this name) and his wife, everyone prepared themselves to leave for the surau where the nikah is going to be held at.

the hantaran..

the groom, my cousin~

the mother, my auntie~

off we go to the surau. at 11am the pak imam arrived with his crew.so we should start on time.but we didn't! pak imam asked us to wait up for another lousy couple that doesn't know the meaning of the word 'punctuality'!! they arrived 15 mins after the scheduled time. *sigh* and so the procession started with the tazkirah regarding the rsponsibilities in family and blah..blah..blah..it was waaaaaaay longer than the khutbah jumaat. i was drowzy and most probably half asleep the whole time. haha. a flashback: i took in some medicine before that after being convinced by my cousin that they won't make me drowzy after taking them in. so NOT!! to top of with that, i slept at 3 am this morning. haha.

the Q&A session @ 'interview'..so the pak imam said.

the ijab and kabul..

doa recital~

and alhamdulillah..everything ends well..and i was reaaaalllyyyy sleepy. as soon as we arrived at rumah nenek, i zonked out though everyone else was having lots of fun openig the hantaran recieved from the bride. owh, what the heck??! i got my longingly waited sleep.ROFL..

thus, we have a new member in the family. actually, kak ila(yes, the bride's name) has been with us for quite awhile now. i guess, today makes it more official..

congratulations!
おめでとうございます!

may this marriage lasts forever. insya ALLAH~

darah manis

2008-12-13T18:03:00.000+08:00

"nek, ji nak keluar."
"tak payah. kamu tu penantin baru, darah manis!"

-abang ji and nenek-

my remarks:
diabetes melitus??haha..definitely not. i guess it's an idiom, the first time i heard of it. it's a belief that someone who is getting married should stay at home the night before the wedding. bad things will happen if they don't.

but in the end, abang ji did go out with my parents to get some stuff for the wedding..

wedding bizarre~

2008-12-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

i'm seriously tired..just got back from my kampung which is actually just 15 mins away from home..
but, it's almost 1.30 am..i shouldn't complain, really. i'm obliged to it. in case you're still wondering (may it be you're a SLOWpoke LOL..or you could care less to read the title first..haha), my cousin is getting married..tomorrow, or should i say later at 11 am will be the nikah ceremony.

so, everyone in the family was really busy with all the hantaran and stuff.seriously, one word!penat!!!!!!owh yeah..i'll be the best man.wakakaka~anyway, if it was not for my shaver i would be sleeping soundly at kampung right now..yes, i left it at home; forced myself to tag along with my parents back here..though a part of me is really relieved to be back home..LMAO because my room doesn't remind me of all the things that we have to do tomorrow and the week to come..

the wedding will be held at my cousin's spouse place tomorrow ie sunday and at our place aka kampung aka rumah nenek yang disayangi a week later..and i'll be the best man for both..here's what i think of being a best man:
-i have to wear sampin and GOD i hate it~a con..
-get to be noticed by everyone which is kinda heavy on both sides~pro and con
-have to stand there for roughly 2 hours..*boring*~con
-i like this one the BEST..you get to taste the special food.yum~pro

come to think of it, it's not a bad idea at all. in fact, it might be a once in a life time experience right??insya Allah nothing bad will happen..lets hope that everything will be OK..i'll get some photos to post up here tomorrow and during the wedding.most probably by monday if i don't plan to stay at kampung for a bit..at least for now i don't think i will.

right. i need to go and clean myself up and straight to bed.

"lepas subuh kite bertolak" -my mom.

in any case, i'm looking forward to it!
tata~

finally!!

2008-12-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

yes!the title speaks for itself. haha. finally my own blog. you know what??been postponing this since before the AS exam. why? because heck! i couldn't think of title. ROFL well, at least now it's here. but, i have this strong feeling that somehow i'll abandon this blog sooner or later. lets hope NOT~*fingers-crossed*

so, what should i write??owh..maybe i should start with a new post..LOL..

SO...

WELCOME TO MY CHAMBER OF THOUGHTS~

hihihi~